Wednesday, 22 June 2016

Dear Diary - Mate dates and life update



My week has quite literally consisted of me eating out far too much, buying too many iced caramel macchiatos from Starbs and just generally living a life I can't afford.
What's a girl to do, I can't possibly say no to food.

Still unemployed.

Still eating away at my decreasing bank balance.

Still not that bothered. It's only because I need new jeans that I'm slightly stressing about my unemployment.

Its not that I'm not taking it seriously because I am, I know better than anyone that I need a job pretty damn fast and I'm kind of doing the odd shift at my old, old job whilst I look for something else so that's something. I just don't see the point in getting myself stressed and worked up over something that is at this moment in time kind of out of my control.
I've handed out CV's, I've emailed and I've applied, there's only so much more I can do.

I read an intersting article the other day regarding unemployment and depression and it really hit a nerve, its amazing how so may people will never have to worry, they will just waltz into something new and will never have that fear of not earning and not working. It is of course my own fault for not planning what I would be doing when I suddenly quit my previous job but in the moment I felt like a sassy independent woman, now, not so much.

I think it's just important to never give up. Realistically I didn't want to have to go back to my old job  and do the odd shift here and there, it's not what I wanted and it's never ideal going back to a job with your tail between your legs and a sign of failure hanging over you but at the end of the day you've got to do what you've got to do.

And like a say, a girls gotta eat.